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[26 Apr 2006|01:02am] |
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I havn't updated this journal since the day after Leroy left. After this entry I'm not sure I'll update it again, I just have no motivation to come on here and write a bunch of shit that no one will read, and I will feel less than compelled to come back and read at some point in time down the road.
If someone would have told me back when I started this journal that in a few years everything would change, and yet much would stay the same I'd say that was a contradiction and probably not possible. Somehow now the statement makes too much sense.
Basically I feel quite a bit lost. I never realize that one person could actually mean that much to my life, and me. I didn't learn it until Leroy left how important having him around was, and how much both of us took advtantage of the friendship. But I don't think we would have ever guess he would have left, possibly permanently.
I wish I could express, truly express what it's like to hang out with someome numerous times during the week, and not do anything at all but feel like so much got accomplished, but that's what we always did.We used to just get in the car drive to a gas station, buy a bunch of snacks and drinks and shit we didn't need, and he the road, end up somewhere far away and make the best of it by finding food somewhere and talking for hrs. We could always make each other crack up, knew everything going on. It was like we were brothers. The time that he had left before he had to leave went by SO fast, we had so much we wanted to do before he left....people wouldnt be able to understand unless they've been this close with someone, but now that he's gone...the thing I wish we could do one more time is get in the car, goto the mall and just walk around and crack jokes, and tell stories, and look at shit we don't need.
I'd love to just hang out once more with him, the way things were...the way things should be now, I should be able to pick the phone up and call him tomorrow and go someplace during or after work. Get food and talk about anything...ANYTHING at all...it wouldnt have mattered. And I can't even call him, all I can do is write a letter, and wait for his letter to get here.
It's like a piece of me, of my personality, of my childhood, and of my life has been taken away, and I had no say in the matter, nor do I have any say on if it'll return, and if it does whether it'll even be remotely the same.
I don't talk about how much it bothers me often, I don't want to be someone that whines about stuff. There's no point in constantly getting down and talking about the bad stuff in life...I think that defines a weakness in not being able to keep yourself and your problems together. But if this is my last journal entry here on livejournal I just wanted anyone that reads this to know how I felt when I came to a period of time in my life of completel uncertainty because one opf the biggest factors of support and understanding in my life is gone. And I'll move on, and someday it won't hurt...but for now it burns inside of me...so bad, and I don't want anyone's sympathy...it's not the end of the world, it's not even anything important to anyone except me, and the people I'm close with. I just needed to get it out, as I'm sure I'll have to again in the future. But probably not here, I feel like to start a new chapter old chapters need to close, and maybe a small step would be closing this journal.
So either this is my last update here...or I'll cave and write again...in any case I made some good friends here, I'm not sure anyone will read this...but if you do...PLEASE...put the people you love in perspective and appreciate the simple things aboput the relationship you have with them. Nothing last forever, not even the things you wouldn't have given a second thought about. ANYTHING can change.
Good Day.
"Adversity introduces a man to himself"
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| Finally... |
[06 Mar 2006|02:06pm] |
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Leroy left for the Navy yesterday, and should have shipped out for basic training today. It's really weird, the whole thing...and it hasn't sunk in that he's gone now...I feel like I'll pick up the phone and call him and there he'll be...but I know that's not gonna happen...so life moves on...yep.
Good Times and Great Memoriesgotta end somewhere...and start again some day.
Good Day
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| Still Chugging Along... |
[15 Dec 2005|09:22pm] |
yeah...the subject says it all...I'm alive, and well...and working all the time, watching movies and reading books the rest of the time.
But I'm alive....so yeah, good times.
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[16 Nov 2005|11:01pm] |
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| R.I.P. Eddie Guererro |
[13 Nov 2005|11:46am] |
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You can find the story at any wrestling website, I'm still very shaken by the news. It's one of the few deaths in wrestling that honestly surprises me...and all I can say is Rest In Peace.
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| No Surprise here... |
[30 Oct 2005|11:18am] |
You belong in RING OF HONOR (ROH). You don't care
about gimmicks and characters. You like to be
part of technical matches. You may not be as
big as WWE performers but you are very skilled
and you feel that is more important.
You like to have long matches that focus on the
athletic abilities of the wrestlers. You would
fit in here no problem.
What Wrestling Promotion do you belong in?
brought to you by Quizilla
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| new screenname |
[26 Oct 2005|11:22pm] |
I finally changed my AIM SN..no more ECW Innovator(for now, might go back) the new one is Nukethebridge86...message me on it sometime so I feel special and all that.
aside from that, went to this year's TPI in Hammond, was a good time..no awkward moments with any anarchists or anything like that..huge lack of sleep going on...and yeah, not a whole lot else. Also sat right down next to Tiffany and Meg again this year, which was a major coincidence seeing as we don't buy the tickets together or anything,. but got seated next to each other the last two years.
And that's pretty much it. I'm done now, so IM me bitches.
Later
P.S. Kobashi in 5 days makes me a happy kid.
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| Rats... |
[23 Oct 2005|08:42pm] |
Mt best friend is enlisting in the navy
My dad's business is going under
and I have a wicked nasty rash on my left arm
Life is good.
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| To: You know who you are |
[22 Oct 2005|11:10pm] |
Thanks for everything.
and by everything..I mean absolutely nothing.
You will know who you are too..afterall, you do read this...right?
To anyone that this didn't make a shred of difference to...dont sweat it.
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| no cut..just this movie thing |
[14 Oct 2005|08:55pm] |
Little x for movies you've seen, Big X for movies you liked alot. That's the basis I do believe...and here goes.
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(X) Boondock Saints
( ) The Mexican
(X) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( )Blazing Saddles
(x) Garden State
(X)The Princess Bride
( ) Young Frankenstien
(x) AnchorMan
(x ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Saw
( ) White noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
Total here: 9
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) Jason X
(x) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(X) American Wedding
( ) Harry Potter
( ) Harry Potter 2
( ) Harry Potter 3
(x) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) The Note Book
Total here: 8
( ) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko
( ) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(x) 13 Ghosts
(X) Signs
(x) The Grinch (both)
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (both)
(x) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) Thirteen going on 30
( ) I Robot
(x) Dodgeball
(x) Universal Soldier
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came A Spider
(x) Deep impact
Total here: 9
(x) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( )Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
(x)The Fifth Element
( )Time Machine
( ) The Ring 2
(X)Harold & Kumar Go to White Castl
( )Going Over Board
(X) Happy Gilmore
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Saving Silverman
( )Secret Window
(x)I Am Sam
(x)The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
(x)The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(x)Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Bad Boys
( )Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( )Seven (SE7EN)
(x)Oceans Eleven
(x) Oceans Twelve
( ) Identity
Total here:19
( ) Lone Star
(X) Predator I
(x) Predator II
(x) Independence day
( ) Cujo
(x) A Knights Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' Daughter (Again...Ugh!)
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
Total here:7
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) X-men 1
(x) X-men 2
(X) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(x) The Hot Chick
( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle
(x) Old School
( ) Ray
(x K-Pax
Total here: 8
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( ) A Walk in the clouds
( ) Boogeyman
( ) Hitch
( ) Back Door Sluts 9
( ) Anal Acres 1
( ) Anal Acres 2
( ) B-Cup Divas
(x) Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
(x)Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x)Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(x)Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi...
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
(x )Air Force One
(x) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
( ) People under the stairs
( )Blue Velvet
( ) Sound of music
(x) Parent Trap
( ) The Burbs
(x)The Terminator
(x) Emperor’s New Groove
(x) SLC Punk
( ) Meet Joe Black
( ) Interview With a Vampire
( ) A Clockwork Orange
( ) The Order
(x) Spiderman
(x) Spiderman 2
( ) Amelie
Total here: 17
( ) Mean Girls
(X) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) The Incredibles
( ) Collateral
(x) The Fast & The Furious
(x) 2 Fast 2 Furious
(x) Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
( ) Closer
Total here: 6
(x) Titanic
( ) Saved
(x) Bowling For Columbine
(x) Farenheit 9/11
(x) The Sixth Sense
( ) Artificial intelligence (AI)
( ) Love actually
( ) Shutter
( ) Ella Enchanted
( ) Princess diaries 1
( ) Princess diaries 2
(x) Constantine
( ) Million Dollar Baby
( ) Envy
( ) Eurotrip
( ) Malibu's Most wanted
(x) Big Daddy
(x) Black Sheep
( ) The Breakfast Club
( ) West side story
Total here: 7
(X) A Christmas Story
( ) Spanglish
(X) Pulp Fiction
( ) Sleepover
(x) The Evil Dead
( ) Killer Klowns From Outer Space
( ) The Seed of chucky
( ) Vanilla Sky
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
( ) Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
(X) The Crow
( ) Purple Rain
(X) Reservoir Dogs
(x) Wayne's World
Total here: 7
(x) Wayne's World 2
( ) 21 Grams
( ) Big Fish
(x) Edward Scissorhands
(X) Clerks
(x) Beauty and the Beast
(x) Guess who
( ) Monster In-Law
(x) Elf
(x) Stuart Little
( ) Stuart Little 2
(X) Mall Rats
(X) Chasing Amy
(X) Dogma
(x) Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
Total here: 11
(x) Beetlejuice
( ) The Last Samurai
(x) The Amityville Horror (old or new)
( ) The Aviator
( ) Romeo and Juliet(both)
( ) Barbershop
( ) Beauty Shop
( ) Legally Blonde
( ) Legally Blonde 2
(x) The Forgotten
( ) Confessions Of A Teenage Drama Queen
( ) Grudge
Total here: 3
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| If... |
[14 Oct 2005|11:47am] |
your name is Curtis and you look like the biggest douche' bag to ever walk the face of the planet AND are willing to let me kick you in the balls and shit on your face, let me know.
That's all.
TPI in like...9 days or something....need the vacation.
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| Saying Goodbye... |
[07 Oct 2005|10:50am] |
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Last Night I had to say goodbye to a place and time in my life that I don't yet think I understand the magnitude of changing I did in and during. I had to walk out of a door and take one last look at a home that housed people I care for, and memories I'll never forget. I've had to say goodbye to a dynamic that is second only to the one I have with my parents, and say hell to an intruder into said dynamic.
I was ready to say goodbye, and said it in my own way, with a bow and a one last glimpse at a time in my life never forgotten. Now that it's finally over and that chapter has been closed I can move on to the next chapter in a long boring story that interests but a few people.
So that's that...subtracted 606 from my life and left with 325(nobody but a few will understand that.
Goodbye 931.
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| This just in from the White House... |
[28 Sep 2005|11:36pm] |
hey everyone..the white house has a hidden message....to see it goto google.com and search the phrase 'miserable failure'
That's all.
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[26 Sep 2005|10:50am] |
Ricky Steamboat
You scored 88% in wrestlingosity, brother! | Technically one of the greatest performances, ever, just lacking that little something extra to take it into all-time level. This was a mat classic you've put on, and definitely something to take pride in.
Pro-wrestling trivia enthusiasts will be studying your work for a while to come.
Congratulations!
Not a half bad score, and I'm totally ok with being Steamboat.
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| Haven't updated in forever |
[25 Aug 2005|10:28am] |
I haven't updated this piece of shit in months9I think)...not alot has changed since I last updated. Still working full time, still going to shows...and looking forward to going to Green Day next tuesday...so that's something to look forward to....I just got told "if you tell anyone this I will kill you!" by Sara, the girl I work with....death threats at work are always clutch....anyways...what was I saying?...ah yes, I don't remember.
Long story short, bought a new laptop, online more often now, going to Green Day on the 30th, going to tPI with leroy next month...and I hate everyone.
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| Want to try a cool new hobby?... |
[28 Jul 2005|04:21pm] |
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Try coughing your fucking lungs out onto a plate, and then stuff it back down your throat where the god damn thing belongs.
Fritz(my boss...kind of) kindly gave me his shitty cold...I'm looking for people that are intersted in taking it off my hands...leave a comment if even mildly interested, I'll call you and let you hear the sounds of love (I.E. the coughing) and appropriate measures can be taken to hand the cold/cough over.
That's all.
Everybody watch the monkey on TV tonight try and convince us that we're all as stupid as he thinks we are(I think alot of us proved that in 2004 already)
Don't fall into the trap kids, we're not winning the war at all..unless you call 1700+ dead winning, then sure...we're doing a terrifical job.
Now that's really all.
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| things get turned upside down..I like it |
[16 Jul 2005|12:38pm] |
So he's leaving...hopefully, and I mean that whole-heartedly...he'll do well...after being a big influence and role model for me for 2 and a half years he's leaving...that's that.
Anywho, went to the IWA-MS show this past weekend, it was a good time...and I got to see Punk wrestle one last time, which was cool. Didnd't catch up with Dinger(because his phone is lame) nor Cannon(because he's lame...hah)...but it was still a good time.
What else...work is..work, and it's burning a hole in my temple.
Nothing else is really going on...I got another new cell phone...my other one broke, that's not really something anyone cares about..but it shows how lame my life has gotten then I have to update this with news of my new phone.
I guess that's it.
I'm done with this for now...back with an update in 2 months.
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